I was the smartest among my siblings. I got straight A's in Ujian Penilaian Sekolah Rendah (UPSR). I also got 7A's in Penilaian Menengah Rendah (PMR). Then I enrolled my study and took pure science stream when I was 16 years old because I wanted to be a doctor. My parents was also hoping that I could be a doctor because I always got flying colors result in my study. I though I could adapt to the elective subjects such as addmaths, physics and chemistry but I could not and my SPM result was really dissapointing. I managed to get only 2A4B1C1D1E.
My target was to get atleast 4A's but it did not. I was really dissapointed with myself. I could not forget when I showed the result to my mother and she immediately crying. She said "I thought you can get a good result and this is really dissapointing me". My father didn't show any expression when he knew about my result. I cried a lot that day. The next day I was on my way to go to my driving class with my parents and we stopped for awhile to get our breakfast. Before we got out of the car, my father said that he was really dissapointed with me. He thought I can make him proud to have a smart and clever daughter. He said that he worked hard for the children, gave us education and wanted to see our victory that can make him proud but i couldn't. His words really make my heart broke apart and I could not stop crying.
Then I applied UPU to continue my study in diploma. I applied courses that related to my study when I was in school but i got non of them. The night after knowing the UPU result, I immediately apllied to a college named Kolej Poly-Tech Mara (KPTM) . I was interested in Early Childhood Education course and apllied it. I was really hoping that I could continue my study there. After knowing about my UPU result, my father was really mad and started to babble. He said that I could not continue my study because of my failure in SPM. He kept saying that my result was really bad and I could not continue my study in any local university with that result. I did get offer letters to study in non-government college but my parents insisted me to study in local university.
A month later, I got a letter from KPTM and my application to study there was accepted. I was happy as clown and my parents allowed me to study there which was in Kota Bharu, Kelantan. I registered on 20th July 2017. When I was in semester one, I got listed in Dean's List for my final examination and my parents was really proud of me.
Now i'm in semester two and I want to achieve my goal to get Dean's List for every semester so that I can prove to my parents especially my father that failure doesn't make you a loser.
This is my college where I'm studying now.
The result of my first semester examination.
My crazy classmates !
I'm glad to be here and ready to struggle for my future.
Written by,
Nur Fatin Najiha (Gee)
